Fight hard and be Thankful

Fighting for peace of mind today. I hate that devil! He likes to try to come in and fill me with doubt, insecurity, and fear. He thinks I'm gonna fall for it again, not this time. I'm not the easy target I used to be.

Our family received some hard news today. At some point recently my Mom has had a stroke. She is doing fine, it was minor. If there is such a thing. It has affected her memory mostly. She fights to remember things that might come easy to you and I. She will be having some more test ran soon that will hopefully tell her more. The crazy thing is yes, she has shed a few tears, but she has an undeniable peace about her. She says that even though she is still in shock, God has given her comfort.



Mom and I
2009



Her and I are in the middle of a Bible study right now that is pretty intense and has us searching the scriptures back and forth with great passion. The Lord is amazing the way he works. I'm not sure that she would be this calm if she hadn't been walking so intimately with the Lord right now. I am so grateful for God's timing. Its almost to much for my little heart to bare.

I love my Mom dearly, shes one amazing woman. She has given me so much and has given up so much for me. I am blessed to have her. My prayer is for God to heal her this side of heaven. Everything in my being cries out for that, but if He chooses not to, I am more than grateful for this time in my life. This time where Mother and Daughter can sit next to each other and cry tears sorrow and joy because of the love of our one and only Jesus.

Thankful to be a shoulder she can cry on. Thankful to be daughter who loves her. Thankful to be a friend to encourage her. Thankful to have a Lord who hears me when I stand on her behalf and cry out in the name of Jesus. Thankful to have a God who heals. Thankful to have a God who fights for her when then enemy attacks. Thankful to have a God who loves her. Thankful to have a God who has redeemed her. Thankful I have God. I LOVE YOU LORD JESUS!

Miracle of the Moment

Good Morning my loves,

It is all very still in the house this morning. Kiddos are still sleeping and very soon it will all start to rev up. I wanted to take some time to ask you how you are. How is 2013 starting off for you? Are you feeling refreshed with a new hope for the next year? Are you excited for the change of a new season? Or are you still holding on to 2012 with all you have? Are you going into 2013 kicking and screaming? Are you like me and change is hard, or to be honest even the thought of change is hard? I'm usually a no person by nature or maybe it’s more by fear. My first response is usually no. I don’t like change, it’s uncomfortable, unpredictable, and sometimes doesn’t work out. I want the guarantee, the for sure. I sometimes worry a lot about what the future holds and miss out on the right now. But knowing the Lord like I do, I knew He wasn’t going to allow me to stay that way for long.

2012 was a good year but a tough year. A lot of change! I mean A LOT of change! Through that though the Lord has dealt with me with much mercy and grace. He has allowed me to dig my heals in and throw my fits but also He has loving picked me back up and renewed His promises in me. He's shown me how flexible I can be and how when trusting in Him the pain is eased. He's given me new hope and shown me that He has a plan for my life and its all for His glory. He has opened my eyes to the miracle of the moment. I miss out on so much when all I do is focus on the past or on the future. I miss out on the right now. My days are filled with two amazing sons and one cute little niece that I have the privilege of spending a couple of hours with each day, home school, sports (my little competitive soccer player is becoming a man right in front of my eyes ), being able to see the world through my 3 year olds eyes which let me tell you is a blast, a husband whose heart is devoted to God and our family, a lot of extended family and after living away for 10 years its more than a joy to be able to spend time with them, amazing friends, and a mission that the Lord put upon my heart.

So if I am so focused on what’s next or what I left behind, I miss out on the joys of right now. Living my life for now may seem like a simple thing to do, but for someone like me that has trouble with letting go of yesterdays and is fearful of the unknowns of tomorrow, right now is a hard thing to focus on at times. I pray that as we all go into this New Year we will learn to have our eyes wide open for today. Let the past be the past and let tomorrow come as it may.

I want you to read some of the words of a song written by Steven Curtis Chapman. Let these words resonate in your soul toward all you face.

"Miracle of the Moment"

‘Cause we are who and where

And what we are for now

And this is the only moment

We can do anything about

So breathe it in and breathe it out

And listen to your heartbeat

There’s a wonder in the here and now

It’s right there in front of you

I don’t want you to miss the miracle of the moment

There’s only one who knows

What’s really out there waiting

In all the moments yet to be

And all we need to know

Is He’s out there waiting

To Him the future’s history

And He has given us

A treasure called right now

And this is the only moment

We can do anything about

So breathe it in and breathe it out

And listen to your heartbeat

There’s a wonder in the here and now

It’s right there in front of you

I don’t want you to miss the miracle of the moment

And if it brings you tears

Then taste them as they fall

And let them soften your heart

And if it brings you laughter

Then throw your head back

And let it go, let it go, yeah You gotta let it go

And listen to your heartbeat, yeah

Breathe it in and breathe it out

And listen to your heartbeat

There’s a wonder in the here and now

It’s right there in front of you

I don’t want you to miss the miracle of the moment

Available on Steven Curtis Chapman's This Moment CD, or on iTunes.com

Enjoy your day and every moment of it!

Love you so,

Edie

 

Onething 2012

Happy New Year Beloved!

What a great way to end 2012 and begin 2013. We spent some time at the Onething Conference this past weekend and it was amazing. I encourage each and everyone of you to attend a Christian conference at sometime. You will leave there not as you entered. Just to see 20,000 people worshiping the Lord will bring you to your knees. It was renewing and refreshing.

As I looked out over everyone with their hands raised in worship it brought tears to my eyes because my heart felt like this is what heaven will be like. People of all ages, race, size, and shape worshiping the one true God. I am so thankful for what the Lord has done in my life. He has pulled me out of the pit and set my feet on solid ground. I am thankful for His love, grace, and mercy for without it I would be living one miserable life without any hope.

As I look back on 2012 and ahead to 2013, I see a lot of things I want to do differently and some that I want to stay the same. Most importantly though I want to further my relationship with the Lord. I want to know Him more intimately and love Him more deeply. I want to be so close to Him that I can not tell where I end and He begins. He has done so much for me in my life, for my loved ones as well. I am excited to see how He will use me to further His kingdom in 2013. I am thankful for the ways He has used me in 2012. I owe Him my life. Praise Jesus Christ alone, the One True God!

So what about you, any blessing in 2012, any changes you want to make in 2013?

Just a heads up the Exodus Cry Abolition Summit (Combat Human Trafficking) is Jan. 2nd-4th 2013 go to exoduscry.com/abolition-summit for more information.

Cant wait to see how God touches my heart at the summit. Hope to see you there.

Let's EMBRACE 2013 and all God has for it!
Lovin you all deeply,
Edie