Nothing like getting on the treadmill at the gym, looking up, and seeing Fat Albert on the television. Now that's some inspiration. No seriously that was some inspiration!
So, last night I decided to get my self up and head to the gym. I hadn't worked out since Monday and honestly I didn't feel like walking through the doors of the gym let alone walking on a treadmill. I've been in a funk lately; been struggling through some things. Fighting battles that are really the Lords to fight. I've been wrestling with things that I am no longer held captive to. Not really sure what was going on I just kept trying to figure out why I was struggling. I know God has a plan, I believe Him, trust Him, love Him, but I just had no peace.
When I saw Fat Albert on the TV, as funny as it was it gave me some insight. You know its kind of like putting that picture of yourself on the fridge when you need to lose some weight. So every time you went to the fridge you would be so disgusted you would just turn and walk away without even a morsel. You know the picture, the one you would just me mortified over if someone actually saw it. The one where you look at it in disbelief that its really even you. The one you can't stand to look at but at the same time you just can't look away. Like a train wreck. Well that's what I realized I needed to do. I need to put a spiritual picture of myself up.
I need to daily, sometimes hourly remind myself of the bondage I was once in, the battles I fought, the insecurities I had, and the fear that took over parts of my life. I need to see that so I can be reminded that Jesus redeemed me from that. He has healed me, released me, set the captive free. I no longer have to live as a wounded person because I am free. I am free in Christ. Those insecurities that creep in, do I measure up, do I matter, can I do this. I need to put them in their rightful place and that is not here in my mind. The Bible says Jesus is the Prince of Peace and peace is exactly what I needed. Peace of mind. I needed to go before the Lord to receive peace. He is peace so He can give it and He does. The Lord is doing a work in me and as hard as it may be on me at times I am ever so grateful. He loves me, oh how He loves me, and He loves you! I want to encourage you sweet friends that if you are struggling as I have been. Take it to the Lord, He is faithful. He hears your cries, knows your heart, He is just to forgive, He desires fellowship with you. He can heal your brokenness and I am living proof that He does. This is one captive He has set free! Hallelujah!
